There comes a point in your life when you realize: Who matters, who never did, who won't anymore and who always will. So don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.
I read this earlier and it seemed so fitting for where I am in my life right now. Well put advice indeed!!
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
Friday, January 14, 2011
A List
- I wish I had signs in my car that I could flash at cars driving down the street (think Roadrunner and Coyote). Each would have the appropriate saying: "Use your blinker", "Get off the cell phone and drive", "Quit following so close", and "Your gas tank is open".
- I've been told twice this week that I was "glowing". I love that compliment the most.
- I heard someone talking about a waffle pattern and I quit listening after that because all I could think about was getting my hands on an Eggo waffle with syrup.
- Have you ever seen the little old ladies that have their skirt/dress hanging out of the door? That happened to me this week...only it was my coat sleeve hanging out the back of the trunk. :)
- I love pineapple mango salsa!
- My legs have been itching like crazy all week long. I'm not sure if it's the cold weather or hormones...maybe both.
- My 9 year old college desktop computer finally died. Thankfully laptops are inexpensive these days. So we bought one and I can't figure out the buttons.
- There is no happy medium of air circulation during the colder months for me. I'm either sweating, freezing, or clamy.
- We bought my cat a bed thinking he might sleep in it since we don't have carpet anywhere but the bedrooms anymore. I guess I underestimated his 14lb frame. He doesn't fit very well... Jenny Craig, do you have a feline program?
- I'd like to call the bathroom, the loo from now on...it sounds so much nicer. Especially since I visit it quite frequently these days.
- Frozen Chinese food out of a bag isn't as good as the commercial makes it look trust me. In fact, it's WAY more trouble than just going to get takeout.
- Does anyone's feet NOT stink after wearing closed-toe shoes all day?
- I'm missing polish on the 3rd toes on each foot...
- I now have a Sam's Club membership. Who doesn't need 548 individual packages of peanut butter crackers?
- This list will bug me if it ends before #20.
- I love my Sunday school class, they pray for me and the baby each week.
- I wish my neighborhood had individual mailboxes instead of the stupid mailbox center.
- This is my last year in my 20's...and I'm ok with that.
- Just like with my wedding, I'm surprised at the things baby related that I don't care that much about.
- Ok, good, #20. I think I can stop. :)
Monday, November 1, 2010
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Saturday, October 30, 2010
On the road again...
Friday, October 29, 2010
Fake it 'til you make it
"Fake it 'til you make it"
Did anyone ever tell you that? I had a teacher in High School that said it each and every day. Not to anyone specifically but as a general reminder that life is full of crappy days, disappointments, and just plain old I-don't-want-to.
That's a huge relief to me these days...my life has been full of disappointments lately. I'm not where I thought I'd be and coming to terms with that is hard. I think each day it will get better and it often does, but there is no denying that I'm guilty of being too hard on myself...as if I have some magic power/control over how and when things happen. That's the illusion though isn't it? That we have some sort of cosmic control over our life? Truth is, very little is in our control. I find that highly annoying and extremely frustrating.
Being the Type A personality that I am (not to mention the annoying "People-pleaser") I find myself thinking that if I had just tried hard enough, been nicer, worked at it longer, or just pretended differently, then I would get the outcome I desired. That's not how it works though, sometimes that's just not THE PLAN. Always the planner, I have no idea how to proceed with my thoughts.
But this is the part where I really DO know....Trust in HIM.
(Sigh)
Meanwhile I'll just try to "fake it 'til I make it".
Did anyone ever tell you that? I had a teacher in High School that said it each and every day. Not to anyone specifically but as a general reminder that life is full of crappy days, disappointments, and just plain old I-don't-want-to.
That's a huge relief to me these days...my life has been full of disappointments lately. I'm not where I thought I'd be and coming to terms with that is hard. I think each day it will get better and it often does, but there is no denying that I'm guilty of being too hard on myself...as if I have some magic power/control over how and when things happen. That's the illusion though isn't it? That we have some sort of cosmic control over our life? Truth is, very little is in our control. I find that highly annoying and extremely frustrating.
Being the Type A personality that I am (not to mention the annoying "People-pleaser") I find myself thinking that if I had just tried hard enough, been nicer, worked at it longer, or just pretended differently, then I would get the outcome I desired. That's not how it works though, sometimes that's just not THE PLAN. Always the planner, I have no idea how to proceed with my thoughts.
But this is the part where I really DO know....Trust in HIM.
(Sigh)
Meanwhile I'll just try to "fake it 'til I make it".
Thursday, October 28, 2010
A new purse will make it better
I came home from work one day this week feeling overwhelmed and exhausted....highly emotional and just DONE with the day.
My sweet husband looks over at me and says "Would you feel better if you went and bought a new Brighton purse?".
In my highly emotional thinking I nod my head no... All the while thinking to myself that wouldn't help me in the least.
....I've changed my mind in the last few days. It WOULD help...a lot. :) I think I'll tell him I've given it a lot of thought and he's absolutely right. It really WOULD make me feel better if I went and bought a new Brighton purse.
I love him!!!
My sweet husband looks over at me and says "Would you feel better if you went and bought a new Brighton purse?".
In my highly emotional thinking I nod my head no... All the while thinking to myself that wouldn't help me in the least.
....I've changed my mind in the last few days. It WOULD help...a lot. :) I think I'll tell him I've given it a lot of thought and he's absolutely right. It really WOULD make me feel better if I went and bought a new Brighton purse.
I love him!!!
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Not what I wanted
I attended a Women of Faith conference over the weekend in San Antonio and it was exactly what I needed. God spoke through these women like no other time I have ever heard. I truly wish I could just cart them around with me for inspiration all the time. It was heart-wrenching, soul-speaking food for thought for 2 whole days. The theme was "Imagination" and trusting in God. Each of the women shared their struggles, both past and present, with trusting God in their lives. My first thought was DUH, of course I trust Him. But as the weekend progressed, I became more and more aware that I wasn't really trusting Him in the ways I should.
Luci Swindoll read a poem that I cannot get out of my head. Using the mighty powers of Google, I found it on another blogger's site. Please forgive me if the correct person is not cited for writing the poem:
It was Spring, but it was Summer I wanted:
The warm days and the great outdoors.
It was Summer, but it was Fall I wanted:
The colorful leaves and the cool, dry air.
It was Fall, but it was Winter I wanted:
The beautiful snow and the joy of the holiday season.
It was Winter, but it was Spring I wanted:
The warmth and the blossoming of nature.
I was a child, and it was adulthood I wanted:
The freedom and the respect.
I was 20, but it was 30 I wanted:
To be mature and sophisticated.
I was middle-aged, but it was 20 I wanted:
The youth and the free spirit.
I was retired, but it was middle-aged I wanted:
The presence of mind without limitations.
My life was over,and I never got what I wanted.
~ a poem from a book by Charles Swindoll
It really made me think about how I'm always wishing my life away....how I constantly wish for something bigger and better. And with that line of thinking I wasn't trusting. What part of the here and now can't I just be happy about? Nothing is so bad in my life right now, I have so much that I've always wanted. Why not just be happy about it? Why not trust that God will bring me to it and through it?
Thankfully I know I'm not alone in these thoughts. So many times I am too busy worrying about the future that I forget to enjoy the present. Not sure I can ever change that completely, it's just part of who I am, but I can be aware of it.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. -Proverbs 3:5
Luci Swindoll read a poem that I cannot get out of my head. Using the mighty powers of Google, I found it on another blogger's site. Please forgive me if the correct person is not cited for writing the poem:
It was Spring, but it was Summer I wanted:
The warm days and the great outdoors.
It was Summer, but it was Fall I wanted:
The colorful leaves and the cool, dry air.
It was Fall, but it was Winter I wanted:
The beautiful snow and the joy of the holiday season.
It was Winter, but it was Spring I wanted:
The warmth and the blossoming of nature.
I was a child, and it was adulthood I wanted:
The freedom and the respect.
I was 20, but it was 30 I wanted:
To be mature and sophisticated.
I was middle-aged, but it was 20 I wanted:
The youth and the free spirit.
I was retired, but it was middle-aged I wanted:
The presence of mind without limitations.
My life was over,and I never got what I wanted.
~ a poem from a book by Charles Swindoll
It really made me think about how I'm always wishing my life away....how I constantly wish for something bigger and better. And with that line of thinking I wasn't trusting. What part of the here and now can't I just be happy about? Nothing is so bad in my life right now, I have so much that I've always wanted. Why not just be happy about it? Why not trust that God will bring me to it and through it?
Thankfully I know I'm not alone in these thoughts. So many times I am too busy worrying about the future that I forget to enjoy the present. Not sure I can ever change that completely, it's just part of who I am, but I can be aware of it.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. -Proverbs 3:5
Thursday, October 14, 2010
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